The Many Faces of KJ

This is Kaylin hoppin' mad.
This is Kaylin pleased as punch.

This is Kaylin extremely concerned.

This is Kaylin having the time of her LIFE!

Alright, so, our little one is a little expressionless. I think I will retire the camera until I can get a smile because the last 20 pictures in my camer all look like these.

Some days

You just need a good cry.

Missing the Manny

I cannot believe it has been almost a week (or has it been a week?) Since my last post.. coming from someone who "statistically" puts out 4 posts a week.. that is S.A.D. Oh well, I am sure you know that I am busy, and although I have an EXTREMELY good baby... it is the REST of my life that is spinning horribly out of control.

That is why I miss the Manny. (For those of you that don't know what that is, it is a MALE NANNY and it formerly came in the form of my husband who is now back to work.)

Ok, so, you know I am grateful for his job and I am sure he is too... but, I sure do miss my Manny. I got sooooooooo many things done.. .that now, seem to go by the wayside.

• I miss his help getting the kids off to school
• I miss him fixing lunch. (Oh yeah baby, he IS the MASTER sandwich maker.
• I miss him doing at least the second 1/2 of Jaxon's therapy run
• I miss him entertaining the kids while I fix dinner
• I miss him doing homework with Abby
• I miss watching The Actor's Studio with him at lunch (DVR'd episodes)
• I miss him watching PTI while I fix dinner
• I miss him doing the dishes
• I miss him.
• I miss having more time with him
• I miss going to In and Out for lunch with him (only on Special Occasions)
• I miss taking naps while he listened for Wade
• I miss him getting Wade up from naps and attending to diaper and sippy cup duty
• I miss him taking care of errands I didn't want to run (i.e. the Grocery Store)
• I miss him.
• I miss him folding laundry in my bedroom
• I miss him making fun of the DVR'd shows I am watching during the day (Who am I kidding, he still makes fun of those)
• I miss having someone to talk to during the day that has more than a 100 word vocabulary
• I miss him directing the kids in their after school TV time and play time (let's face it, I am a sucker and let them watch too much TV after school... I am trying)
• I miss him watching the kids while I went to "lunch club" for Relief Society
• I miss him.

It is official. I miss him. BIG TIME. The thing that is getting most out of control is of course, the cleanliness of the house. I normally can keep that under control NO PROBLEM... But it seems to be the last thing on my list after Nursing, doing laundry, and maybe trying to get something going for dinner. I know this won't last forever and I am definitely trying my best to enjoy this little ANGEL the most that I can.. But it also seems about time to get my butt in gear and try to lose a few lbs.. .So, off I go.. Getting the kids in the double jogger... See you later!

Ps- My MIL was here last week playing Nanny (I wish you could all see her jump on the trampoline with my Wade... too cute for words), and you would think I would have had time to blog some more... BUT we were INCREDIBLY BUSY with more projects! I will post pictures soon. YOU WON'T BELIEVE IT! :)

I can't believe I didn't

Blog about the Bachelor this week. BUT YOU BETTER BELIEVE I WATCHED IT! Compared to most though, I am truly missing the boat. Sleep deprivation is stifling my ability to notice the fine and completely entertaining detail... But, the FABULOUS Jeanelle has taken up in my spot.

We had a hilarious e-mail chain going yesterday that left me truly amazed at what I missed when I was watching the show. I am very bleary eyed... cuz even though this baby is a VERY GOOD baby.. She likes to try to stay up on her 2 a.m. feeding.. and I always have a spot of trouble getting her settled back down. It is costing me my razor sharp bachelor senses. (If it sounds like a Super Hero Power, that is because, IT IS)

Thank HEAVENS Jeanelle has been blogging about it so I can read and laugh and remind myself to watch it again when I am a little more alert. If you want some REALLY great Bachelor entertainment, check Chris Harrison's blog. Just ANOTHER reason to love Chris Harrison. (My favorite host BY FAR... especially if you have seen any of his outtakes. He truly has a fantastic sense of humor--- Oh wait, did I just say FAVORITE HOST? He must be running neck and neck with Tom Bergeron.. .because I totally love him too.)

On a side note... I miss my Manny... Peter had his first full day of work yesterday and I was....

LONELY.

If you would have asked me back in October if I liked having him home I would have told you that I was secretly pulling my hair out and wanted him out of my "office" for the day. I guess I had a few months to change my mind.... More on that to come.

I am in LOVE.

I am in love. I think the season is getting to me because I have moments where I am just overwhelmed with L.O.V.E. (I am sure sleep deprivation is causing quite a bit of emotion too)



The past 9 months, I have been gestating. Not just a baby, but a new life, extreme challenges, heartbreak, frustration, sadness, wonderful blessings, calm and peace only the spirit can bring, and new love for my husband of 9 years.



I have shed more tears than I could have possibly imagined. I have asked why. I have cursed the heavens. I have resigned myself to God's will, I have overcome my frustrations, I have truly let God and let go.



You see, back then... we were on our way to a new life. But, apparently it wasn't the new life we THOUGHT we were getting. It was the new life Heavenly Father wanted us to have. He knew that it would be life altering. He knew that we would become stronger because of it. He knew that I would eventually realize that if I hadn't gotten pregnant when I did, I would have NEVER had a fourth child. He knew that these challenges would forever change my husband from the person I knew he was into an even better, more focused, more spiritual person than he was before.



We lost a lot in the process. A lot of $$$$$, a lot of hair, a lot of friends (from moving away), a lot of sanity, a lot of peace and even MORE SLEEP.



We gained grey hairs (I finally got one), new help for Jaxon, a new daughter and a better life. (We haven't yet gained back the sleep)



But here we are at the end. (kind of) Looking back, and BEGINNING to realize why it all went down. All I can feel is love. LOVE. L.O.V.E. In a whole new way. Don't get me wrong. It was rough. Rougher than I thought my life would EVER be. But I am grateful because now I see what I have. Now I see some light. Now I see that maybe Heavenly Father knows the plan a little better than I do, and now, I have more faith to let him be in total control. (Because I never even REMOTELY had control of this DOOZEY) I just had moments... Moments of inspiration. Moments of peace. Moments when I knew exactly what I needed to do to help my husband endure and find peace even in the most difficult of times. It is a horrible experience to watch someone you love suffer and struggle when there is nothing you can do except try to support them through it all.



We grew. We grow. We are still growing. We have a L.O.N.G. way to go to get back to where we were (stability wise).... But we are on our way.



Peter starts work on Tuesday.

ONE WEEK OLD

My little babe is one week old.

So I am NOT a professional photographer...

Get over it.

FYI: Kaylin is pretty much a dream. Here is to hoping she stays that way! She doesn't fuss unless she is hungry and that is minimal at best. :) She is still up in the night 1 -2 x. But, who can blame her? The girl was 10 lbs!!! PS- If she is sometimes referred to as Kaylie, don't be confused. Our negotiation was that I could name her Kaylin, as long as Peter could call her Kaylie.. DONE. You are free to choose whichever you prefer.

Miracle Part 1

I have a lot to share... but don't know where to start. Let's just say that only having to get up for ONE feeding at night (last night, 3:00 a.m.) has made me feel like a WHOLE NEW WOMAN!

I mean, yesterday, if you would have talked to me... asked me a question such as, "How is your day?" I would have burst into tears and blubbered something about sleep deprivation and how insane I am that I had another baby and blah blah blah. It was tragic.

TODAY, if you would ask me how my day is I would say, "FABULOUS, WONDERFUL, AMAZING, I AM SO BLESSED!" Because, I am. I am sure there will be a few more sleepless nights, but right now, WOW. I feel great. So great, I think I might clean the kitchen floor. (Don't worry, no mops, just vacuums for now) There are lots of other miracles going on right now. Ones that I can't WAIT to share, but for now, I will share how this awesome little babe made her entry into the world. Lots of you have asked, and so, if you are interested... here is how it all went down. If you aren't interested, STOP READING RIGHT NOW!

As you know, (well, I guess you would only know if you read ALL of my blog posts) I scheduled an induction because this little girl was NOT going to come out willingly. I was officially due on Feb 3rd. (Of course I thought I was going to have her January 20something) I had originally scheduled one for the week prior, but chickened out because.....

As a VBAC patient, there is not a lot a Dr. can do for me to get me into Labor. As a matter of fact, MOST Dr.s will do NOTHING because of the risk involved. (i.e. my uterus splitting open from the previous incision from my c-section--hey, I said stop reading if you can't hack it!) So, I decided to wait one more week. On Saturday night I had contractions for 12 hours straight, but they never went below 10 mins apart (unless I was out walking.. believe me I TRIED). Anyway, on Monday I went to the Dr. and scheduled the soonest induction I could have, and I use the words "induction" loosely, because there isn't a lot they can do for a VBAC. My Dr.s said they would break my water and MAYBE give me a LITTLE pitocin.

We checked into the hospital at 7:30 a.m. on Wednesday Feb 4th for my scheduled induction and of course didn't see a Dr. until around 10:00. I think she broke my water about 10:30 a.m. and NOTHING HAPPENED. They wouldn't let me walk either because of my "status" (VBAC). So, I laid there and watched the Bonnie Hunt show and a bunch of other TV I never get to see because I am either watching Super Why or Teletubbies...

About 12:30 she came to "check me" and there had been little to no activity (3 cm), so they set me up on a pit drip. Now, me compared to a regular pit drip is increase by 1 every 30 mins. Normally, they would increase by 2 every 30 mins up to 30 ccs. For me, they would go no higher than 6. No worries. By the time I was up to a 4 on the pit drip, (about 3:00 p.m.) I asked for that BLESSED EPIDURAL.

In comes the all knowing anesthesiologist. Whom asked, "is there anything I should know before I get started?" I said, "YES! The last Dr. said to start a few spots higher on my back because my contacts are too tight" [it took him 45 mins to get me my epidural with Wade and I almost killed the poor man]. Of course this Dr. being SO MUCH BETTER than the other Dr. decided to ignore my advice and to do TWO attempts as well. GEE THANKS. I LOVE THAT SHARP SHOOTING PAIN IN MY BACK. CAN YOU DO IT AGAIN? Anyway, x2 was successful and after that, it was smooth sailing. I seem to recall saying things like, "Am I even HAVING contractions?" I guess the only bad thing would be that my blood pressure bottomed out... and they spent some time working on that. It felt like I was just uber tired and a little loopy. Maybe like a drug induced high? I wouldn't know.

She was delivered at about 5:15 p.m. We pushed a little with my nurse (whom I totally loved, shared a birthday with as well as a complete addiction to chapstick) and then the Dr. came and we finished things up! You might be thinking, "huh, I thought that was almost a 10 lb. baby!" Well, she was, but as my previous OB said, "I think you could give birth to a Mac Truck" (I take it as a compliment) I am not a little person so, getting her out wasn't so hard. As a matter of fact, she had a perfectly round head..... No cones... because, well, I have a gigantic pelvis... so, there you have it. :)

More on the other miracles if I get another good nights sleep.

Trying to Live

#4

I am having a hard time putting this post together.

I am overwhelmed.

With LOVE

and

With FEAR

I am just kidding.

Life with Kaylin has been pretty great.

I forget how great (tiring) it is to have such a small spirit in the house.

Abby adores her and adores holding her.

Jaxon notices her and is impressed when she opens her eyes.

Wade wants ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with her,

but made some small progress this morning by approaching her. (A big step)

So far we are making it.

I am happy to have Peter home.

Although, being employed would be great too :)

She is a pretty mellow baby.

Some crying, but not too much.

Only when I want to go to bed.

I am getting rest, thanks to Peter.

MOSTLY, I AM GRATEFUL TO HAVE HER OUT

She looks NOTHING like our other children.

I am not sure where she came from!

Here are some more pictures for you to FEAST on. :)

Hospital day #2

Getting some love from K-lo, one of her namesakes!

Giving the "one eye" to Abby.

The family picture I didn't get at the hospital! I didn't even get a picture of ME holding her at the hospital! (Poor 4th child)

This just happens to be what she is doing RIGHT NOW. :)

Pictures of the WHOPPER

All dolled up.

We have yet to see her eyes...

For the TRUE SCOPE of the Fatness... Enjoy.

She is a WHOPPER!

I wish I could post a pic.. but, not yet. Kaylin Jean was born at 5 :15 p.m. weighing in at 9 lbs. 10 oz!! I can't WAIT to show you a pic because she looks NOTHING like my other kids! Where did she come from? More to come tomorrow. :)

The Bachelor Goes CIVIL?

Wow, I have never heard so many people say so many nice things about the OTHER people on The Bachelor ! It was like a big ol' testimony meeting!

Truthfully, I think Naomi should have gone home tonight. Not that Stephanie was my favorite (her look is a little extreme) but, she was obviously a total sweetheart, caregiver, kind heart... It was amazing to see the girls treat each other so CIVILLY!

It must just be because they are *gasp* normal people??? Awwww, then what fun is THIS going to be??? I can't say that I EVER remember an episode of the Bachelor where I liked more than ONE person. (Maybe TWO at the most) But I can honestly say, although I think Stephanie wasn't right for him... I still liked her ok. No one could find anything bad to say about her!!

Right now, my favorites are Jillian, Molly and Melissa. *SCANDAL* Melissa's home date goes terribly wrong! Next week looks like better blog fodder anyway. (The dead dove burial?? Buh Bye Naomi!)

Pretty Near Perfect

Believe it or not, I had a pretty near perfect day on Saturday. (I know, hard to believe since I have not had this baby yet) But it is true!!! The weather was near 80 degrees, Jaxon has learned to ride his bike without training wheels and I decided to capitalize on BOTH while trying to get this baby to budge.

SO: We went on a riding bike tour of our neighborhood.

I wish I would have had my camera. We rode through the abandon streets (one of many of Az's empty and not growing neighborhoods, due to the economy and market failure) of our development to each of the neighborhoods 4 parks. The empty streets were perfect as Jaxon riding his bike is like a scud missile with multiple possible targets. I was able to let him ride behind me (YES, I WAS RIDING A BIKE AT 9 MONTHS PREGNANT. Yet another reason I didn't take my camera, one doesn't want proof of such things. ) and every once in a while I would turn to look at him in a pile of legs and bike parts waiting for assistance. He kept getting back on though and the kids thought my ability to find new and undiscovered parks was purely amazing! I would sit and enjoy the sun while they explored the greatness of our many neighborhood parks!

We finally made it home and I decided to get productive. It was time to clean the house for the 4 th time in an effort to show good faith that this baby WILL EVENTUALLY COME. I enlisted Abby to empty the dishwasher and much to my surprise, she then volunteered to mop the floor!

I even caught her enjoying it! I mean, I am going to capitalize on her being WILLING to mop the floor as long as I can, and someday, I will show her this picture of a time where she ASKED to mop the floor and LOOKED LIKE she was enjoying it. Ah, the sweet wonder of capturing a moment on FILM. After that, I took a nice long bath (no pix of that of course) and decided to make CUPCAKES to celebrate our baby's birthday. I was hoping that us celebrating would encourage her to make her debut. It didn't, but, I have eaten several cupcakes every day since.. .just in case.

Wouldn't this make YOU want to come out????

Happy Birthday baby! We hope you decide to come out soon!

Sorry you missed your birthday party!

(Note: Baby's birthday party was followed by 14 hours of contractions at 10 mins apart... then, Nothin')

Email from Home

My husband and I e-mail... here is where you would say, isn't he home right now???? Looking for work???????? And I would say, yes, as a matter of fact he is! Yet, we still find e-mailing as a great way of communication. Ok, I guess that could also mean that we STINK at communication but it works for us, so there....

PLUS, as you probably know, my laptop is in my ROOM...Near my BED... Where I watch TV... It is a great set up. I am thinking I need one of these. My birthday is coming up. . . maybe I will get one then and my life will be complete.. (or completely a waste) Anyway, I recently got an e-mail from Peter regarding one of his favorite past times which would be. . . . Making me feel old. We are the same age, but, he has this crazy nack about numbers . . . and calculating them, and if you know me at all you know I am not good with numbers. (Forget the fact I was a financial advisor... I am VERY good with software, ok??) I am just not good at adding on the "fly".

Usually, Peter will just come up with this kind of information at a completely random moment.. but for some reason, he decided to e-mail it to me. Normally, he tells me when were are eating lunch, driving in the car or doing something else totally random. I was going to keep a log of all of his "calculations" so I could share them with you, but, I can't seem to get my log going, so, now that he gave one to me in print, I will share. I think he REALLY missed his calling as a statistician. (Is that even a profession?) Well, if it was, he would do well. . . .

Now, welcome to my world....

Led Zepplen's final studio album came out in 1979, 10 years before our sophomore year in High School.
Third Eye Blind's "Jumper" came out in April 1997, nearly 12 years ago.
In 2 years, Nirvana's Nevermind will be 20 years old.
Next year will mark 30 years since U2's 'Boy' came out.
In perspective, our freshman year of high school was 31 years after Elvis' "Jailhouse Rock" and Frank Sinatra's "Come Fly With Me" came out.
When Abby is a Freshman in High School, 'Boy' will be 37 years old.
Our Freshman year of High School, Nat King Cole's "Unforgetable" was 37 years old.

Feel old now? Me too.

Then I got an e-mail from Abby.

Dear mom it saes nothing of a kind about where to go!

I know that won't make sense to you, but, I loved it. I still can't believe that I can get an e-mail from my 7 year old... hilarious. Never mind the fact that she could have walked into my room and asked me about it... She had to e-mail me. I guess she is learning how we roll. . . No talkie talkie.. Just E-MAIL. (Maybe I should get her hooked up on FACEBOOK!)

Endurance . . . .

Waiting for a baby is like waiting for a pot of water to boil. You just wait and wait and wait... Wade coming 10 days early ruined me into thinking that I will have all of my babies early from here on OUT! Since then, I automatically moved this babies "due date" up 10 days and started counting from there. . .. All through this pregnancy I have thought, "this baby is going to come early!"

Clearly... I don't have much by way of "mother's intuition". Peter has known that since I was pregnant with Abby, because I SWORE she was a boy and said I knew by, "mother's intuition". When we found out "he" was going to be a "she" I was forever labeled as a mother with NO intuition and I have proven that fact, once again.. boldly, and nobly... (I should REALLY just learn to not listen to myself)

This baby is coming on her own timetable and the only thing that has REALLY gotten my goat this week has been that I have had a drop dead evil cold for the past 7 days... I mean, I didn't go to church last week because of this cold and it just got worse and worse and worse... When I would lay down to go to sleep, my lungs would start to rattle, and I would have a complete coughing spasm and cough until my head started to hurt and I had nothing left to cough. I was feeling despair in a whole new way. No sleep + No Baby= Crazy Emotional Frustrated Crying.

I kept thinking I would "get better" and finally decided that wasn't going to happen and went to the Dr. today. She gave me an antibiotic and I almost kissed her. I am happy to announce that thanks to my antibiotics, I might actually get some sleep tonight... Three cheers for getting SOME sleep. I have a whole new outlook on being OVERDUE! ;) I think I might actually make it now!!! Regardless, thanks for "checking" up on us. Good news will be here soon enough.

Impatience

Remember when your mom said, "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all." ?
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Enough Said.

The Next Love Guru

I think I am going to go into business. You got friends that need some LOVE advice? Just send them my way... because remember when I said this????

Well, here you have her admitting to it... Yes, that is right! Deanna Pappas admitted to making a MISTAKE. She said, "We realized that we were two totally different people who wanted totally different things and we lived our lives in totally different ways and it was never gonna work. I loved him sincerely, but it would not have worked in the long run."

Lemme at her. I could have saved her a WHOLE lotta time and a WHOLE lotta heartbreak... All she needed to do was listen to ME, (Or her sister who said the EXACT SAME THING) Either way, I think I know how to call 'em when I see 'em. Need some LOVE advice? You know where to find me, and it ain't the hospital.

All Dressed Up With No Where To Go. . .

Alright, I dreamt it. I am NOT REALLY having a baby. It is all just a fabrication... a LIE. (You could tell by the pictures of the bulging belly, right? I mean, that is CLEARLY just an over indulgence of COOKIE DOUGH).

That is how I am starting to feel anyway. The reality of having a baby seems to be getting further and further away. I know my widget (floating baby) is missing from my sidebar, but, I am still not to my due date (Due Feb 2nd) So, I guess I am being a little hasty, but, I had high hopes! After all, Wade was 10 days early and this baby is BIG and ready to come on out. She has been working on it for a while... (contractions everyday that never get close enough to time but are persistent enough to a-drive me crazy, b-make it so I can't sleep and c- make me feel the need to get everything "ready" to leave the house d-the answer is all of the above)

So, I have now cleaned my house for the 3rd time.. Yes, the THIRD TIME. All the bathrooms all the floors, dusting and all the laundry.. for the LOVE, CAN'T I JUST GO INTO LABOR?

I have not had a full nights sleep in two weeks.. Between having to go to the bathroom (every HOUR last night) or having persistent contractions that are JUST uncomfortable to keep me up. And now, I am so run down, that I have a dirty rotten head cold. No amount of Emergen "C" has been able to knock this puppy outta the park.. so, here I am... head cold and all.. still waiting.

I guess it has given me time to be more "prepared" maybe little "K" just was waiting until I finished her Initial for her room.

I got one of those paper mache letters from Joanne's and covered it with the fabric from her valance and soon to be dust ruffle.. Of course that is not done! It probably won't be until I officially move her in.. After all, Wade is inhabiting her room right now, and it is unclear as to when that transition will take place.
I also got her diaper bag ready. Is this not the CUTEST DIAPER BAG? Made by my one and only MIL quilter extraordinare! (Really she is) I got to pick out the fabric and VOILA, she delivered it on her last visit. SO cute, and just what I needed to carry K's stuff in.
Here is her bag all ready to go.. I guess all I need to do now is get her an invitation!!! I have head flower: CHECK! Go home outfit: CHECK! Booties from my SIL: CHECK! Super YUMMY ORGANIC SWADDLING BLANKIE from the sweet blogger Kelly. (She is so thoughtful, seriously, we have never even met in person!) She checked out my registry and SURPRISE! It showed up on my door step. Seriously sweet. The bag has a few other items. Chargers, Cameras, etc.

Now, ALL WE NEED IS BABY.

This belle is ready for the BALL! Clean bathrooms AND ALL! So, come on little baby.. come on out!

OH! I have given you a little Poll to entertain yourselves (some of you are checking my blog just to see if I have gone into labor yet.. checking my tweets... You are lovely, thank you for being excited for me) so, now, when you come to visit and find that I am STILL HERE, at least now you can VOTE... (You might as well have something to do while you are here, right? ) ENJOY!

No News is BAD news

when you are pregnant. Yep, we are still here... waiting, waiting, waiting...

I have to admit, I am going to miss this bump in SOME ways.. (Not in the getting up, rolling over or going to the bathroom ways) but there are SOME ways... Like

I can actually hold a book open with my belly while I am curling my hair in the bathroom, thus leaving my hands free to do my hair AND read at the same time.. beautiful......

As a TV tray.... I can put that plate perfectly balanced on my belly and blog AND watch TV all at the same time!!! (She has tried to kick it off before)

Or as a way to ignore my toddler when he is asking for a "sippy cup juice" for the millionth time. Believe it or not, when I was trying to take this picture, there was a few minutes where I couldn't even see him under there...

Oh, and although I can't take a picture of it, well I could have, but I am not going to get back in the bath to do it, I will miss this belly as an Island... Yep.. an Island.. Jaxon noticed it first... "HEY MOM! You have an ISLAND!!!!"

Hopefully, we will find ways to enjoy a baby instead...

The Bachelor RE-CAP

Ahhhhhh, there is nothing like an episode of the Bachelor to make me forget about the fact that I am NOT in labor right now. This week was particularly rewarding because the girls are finally starting to show their true colors... I have to imagine there are times when they watch the show back and say, "Why on this good earth did I SAY that?" Hence: excellent reality TV.

I realized by analyzing this episode that what makes it different than other Reality TV shows (say, Momma's boys) is that the girls are SERIOUS! And although they might cast a villain or two, they don't try to go as "over the top" as some shows and just let the girls come after each other... "naturally"... they don't HAVE to create drama.. cuz, there just IS.

Here is just a quick run-down of Jason's options this week.

Natalie: "I love bears!" (what?)
Stephanie: "My dead husband" Was kissing the face a little too much {motherly]? Or was that just me?
Megan: "I am deep." Does she ever smile except when she is with Jason?
Melissa: "I had a breast reduction! They were double f's!"(Was she trying to make him feel bad?)
Nikki: "I am a control freak and a perfectionist" "I always have a back up plan to a back up plan" "The Toothpaste is next to the mouthwash, I am VERY organized" (I personally can't get past the sideburns)
Jason: [To Nikki] I LOVE that dress! (Did you SEE that dress? Or did you just see what that dress showed?)
Shannon: "I just don't know what to say" "I just want to be the person who completes you""I am so ready to be a mother""I am just emotional all the way around" (Enough said, Shannon)
Naomi: "I've only been with one person" (That is ONE way to distinguish yourself!)
Lauren: "Megan is just mean, I am AFRAID OF HER!"
Erica: "Did you just look at my b**bs?"
Molly: "It would be very typical of me to fall in love in this situation!"
Kari: If you can tell me who Jill is without looking at the website I will send you $1!

Of course he kept my two favorite Trainwrecks from this week, Shannon and Megan so there is bound to be the MOST DRAMATIC ROSE CEREMONY EVAH next week. :)

PS- I am guest posting at The Bingham Diaries Tomorrow! Check it out!

Where did the time go?

Peter and I went out last night (hopefully as a last hurrah.. Dr. 10:50 Monday morning) and he said, "I don't even remember what Wade was like as a baby..." WHAT? Wade was the best baby! That is probably why he doesn't remember. Honestly, I enjoyed my time with Wade more than any other baby. No, offense, but, as a first time mom I was stressed out, had major nursing issues and constantly wondered if she was hungry? Wet? Tired? I had no idea.

I felt a little more in control with Jaxon, except for the fact that he was constantly sick.. and therefore GRUMPY. He was a typical GRUMPY baby.. Memories of HIM as a baby stuck with us for quite some time and was excellent birth control. But, WADE. WAS. WONDERFUL. (Seriously) Pretty easy going baby.. I felt like I knew what I was doing and enjoyed my time with him as an infant sooooooo much.

We are still enjoying Wade quite a bit. He has a great personality and is pretty easy going as long as he is not hungry.. Then he turns into a little angry bear, but who doesn't?

In effort to jog Peter's memory a little, I went through the picture archives to remind me of our little Wade. Even though I can't WAIT to get this new baby into the world... it does seem a bit surreal that we are actually going to have ANOTHER newborn in the house. Exciting, but, overwhelming at the same time.

Really, the time with Wade went so fast. I see that picture of him sitting up (in the blue shirt) at about 6 months old and it seems like time just flew by. He grew up so fast! We are still having the greatest time with him, and unlike Jaxon at this age, his language is increasing exponentially. Here are some of his latest tricks.. I'll understand if you don't watch them.. they are more for the fam anyway! Enjoy
Peter and Wade do their "forced laugh" routine.