This is Kaylin pleased as punch.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
This is Kaylin pleased as punch.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
That is why I miss the Manny. (For those of you that don't know what that is, it is a MALE NANNY and it formerly came in the form of my husband who is now back to work.)
Ok, so, you know I am grateful for his job and I am sure he is too... but, I sure do miss my Manny. I got sooooooooo many things done.. .that now, seem to go by the wayside.
- I miss his help getting the kids off to school
- I miss him fixing lunch. (Oh yeah baby, he IS the MASTER sandwich maker.
- I miss him doing at least the second 1/2 of Jaxon's therapy run
- I miss him entertaining the kids while I fix dinner
- I miss him doing homework with Abby
- I miss watching The Actor's Studio with him at lunch (DVR'd episodes)
- I miss him watching PTI while I fix dinner
- I miss him doing the dishes
- I miss him.
- I miss having more time with him
- I miss going to In and Out for lunch with him (only on Special Occasions)
- I miss taking naps while he listened for Wade
- I miss him getting Wade up from naps and attending to diaper and sippy cup duty
- I miss him taking care of errands I didn't want to run (i.e. the Grocery Store)
- I miss him.
- I miss him folding laundry in my bedroom
- I miss him making fun of the DVR'd shows I am watching during the day (Who am I kidding, he still makes fun of those)
- I miss having someone to talk to during the day that has more than a 100 word vocabulary
- I miss him directing the kids in their after school TV time and play time (let's face it, I am a sucker and let them watch too much TV after school... I am trying)
- I miss him watching the kids while I went to "lunch club" for Relief Society
- I miss him.
It is official. I miss him. BIG TIME. The thing that is getting most out of control is of course, the cleanliness of the house. I normally can keep that under control NO PROBLEM... But it seems to be the last thing on my list after Nursing, doing laundry, and maybe trying to get something going for dinner. I know this won't last forever and I am definitely trying my best to enjoy this little ANGEL the most that I can.. But it also seems about time to get my butt in gear and try to lose a few lbs.. .So, off I go.. Getting the kids in the double jogger... See you later!
Ps- My MIL was here last week playing Nanny (I wish you could all see her jump on the trampoline with my Wade... too cute for words), and you would think I would have had time to blog some more... BUT we were INCREDIBLY BUSY with more projects! I will post pictures soon. YOU WON'T BELIEVE IT! :)
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
We had a hilarious e-mail chain going yesterday that left me truly amazed at what I missed when I was watching the show. I am very bleary eyed... cuz even though this baby is a VERY GOOD baby.. She likes to try to stay up on her 2 a.m. feeding.. and I always have a spot of trouble getting her settled back down. It is costing me my razor sharp bachelor senses. (If it sounds like a Super Hero Power, that is because, IT IS)
Thank HEAVENS Jeanelle has been blogging about it so I can read and laugh and remind myself to watch it again when I am a little more alert. If you want some REALLY great Bachelor entertainment, check Chris Harrison's blog. Just ANOTHER reason to love Chris Harrison. (My favorite host BY FAR... especially if you have seen any of his outtakes. He truly has a fantastic sense of humor--- Oh wait, did I just say FAVORITE HOST? He must be running neck and neck with Tom Bergeron.. .because I totally love him too.)
On a side note... I miss my Manny... Peter had his first full day of work yesterday and I was....
Sunday, February 15, 2009
The past 9 months, I have been gestating. Not just a baby, but a new life, extreme challenges, heartbreak, frustration, sadness, wonderful blessings, calm and peace only the spirit can bring, and new love for my husband of 9 years.
I have shed more tears than I could have possibly imagined. I have asked why. I have cursed the heavens. I have resigned myself to God's will, I have overcome my frustrations, I have truly let God and let go.
You see, back then... we were on our way to a new life. But, apparently it wasn't the new life we THOUGHT we were getting. It was the new life Heavenly Father wanted us to have. He knew that it would be life altering. He knew that we would become stronger because of it. He knew that I would eventually realize that if I hadn't gotten pregnant when I did, I would have NEVER had a fourth child. He knew that these challenges would forever change my husband from the person I knew he was into an even better, more focused, more spiritual person than he was before.
We lost a lot in the process. A lot of $$$$$, a lot of hair, a lot of friends (from moving away), a lot of sanity, a lot of peace and even MORE SLEEP.
We gained grey hairs (I finally got one), new help for Jaxon, a new daughter and a better life. (We haven't yet gained back the sleep)
But here we are at the end. (kind of) Looking back, and BEGINNING to realize why it all went down. All I can feel is love. LOVE. L.O.V.E. In a whole new way. Don't get me wrong. It was rough. Rougher than I thought my life would EVER be. But I am grateful because now I see what I have. Now I see some light. Now I see that maybe Heavenly Father knows the plan a little better than I do, and now, I have more faith to let him be in total control. (Because I never even REMOTELY had control of this DOOZEY) I just had moments... Moments of inspiration. Moments of peace. Moments when I knew exactly what I needed to do to help my husband endure and find peace even in the most difficult of times. It is a horrible experience to watch someone you love suffer and struggle when there is nothing you can do except try to support them through it all.
We grew. We grow. We are still growing. We have a L.O.N.G. way to go to get back to where we were (stability wise).... But we are on our way.
Peter starts work on Tuesday.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
FYI: Kaylin is pretty much a dream. Here is to hoping she stays that way! She doesn't fuss unless she is hungry and that is minimal at best. :) She is still up in the night 1 -2 x. But, who can blame her? The girl was 10 lbs!!! PS- If she is sometimes referred to as Kaylie, don't be confused. Our negotiation was that I could name her Kaylin, as long as Peter could call her Kaylie.. DONE. You are free to choose whichever you prefer.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
I mean, yesterday, if you would have talked to me... asked me a question such as, "How is your day?" I would have burst into tears and blubbered something about sleep deprivation and how insane I am that I had another baby and blah blah blah. It was tragic.
TODAY, if you would ask me how my day is I would say, "FABULOUS, WONDERFUL, AMAZING, I AM SO BLESSED!" Because, I am. I am sure there will be a few more sleepless nights, but right now, WOW. I feel great. So great, I think I might clean the kitchen floor. (Don't worry, no mops, just vacuums for now) There are lots of other miracles going on right now. Ones that I can't WAIT to share, but for now, I will share how this awesome little babe made her entry into the world. Lots of you have asked, and so, if you are interested... here is how it all went down. If you aren't interested, STOP READING RIGHT NOW!
As you know, (well, I guess you would only know if you read ALL of my blog posts) I scheduled an induction because this little girl was NOT going to come out willingly. I was officially due on Feb 3rd. (Of course I thought I was going to have her January 20something) I had originally scheduled one for the week prior, but chickened out because.....
As a VBAC patient, there is not a lot a Dr. can do for me to get me into Labor. As a matter of fact, MOST Dr.s will do NOTHING because of the risk involved. (i.e. my uterus splitting open from the previous incision from my c-section--hey, I said stop reading if you can't hack it!) So, I decided to wait one more week. On Saturday night I had contractions for 12 hours straight, but they never went below 10 mins apart (unless I was out walking.. believe me I TRIED). Anyway, on Monday I went to the Dr. and scheduled the soonest induction I could have, and I use the words "induction" loosely, because there isn't a lot they can do for a VBAC. My Dr.s said they would break my water and MAYBE give me a LITTLE pitocin.
We checked into the hospital at 7:30 a.m. on Wednesday Feb 4th for my scheduled induction and of course didn't see a Dr. until around 10:00. I think she broke my water about 10:30 a.m. and NOTHING HAPPENED. They wouldn't let me walk either because of my "status" (VBAC). So, I laid there and watched the Bonnie Hunt show and a bunch of other TV I never get to see because I am either watching Super Why or Teletubbies...
About 12:30 she came to "check me" and there had been little to no activity (3 cm), so they set me up on a pit drip. Now, me compared to a regular pit drip is increase by 1 every 30 mins. Normally, they would increase by 2 every 30 mins up to 30 ccs. For me, they would go no higher than 6. No worries. By the time I was up to a 4 on the pit drip, (about 3:00 p.m.) I asked for that BLESSED EPIDURAL.
In comes the all knowing anesthesiologist. Whom asked, "is there anything I should know before I get started?" I said, "YES! The last Dr. said to start a few spots higher on my back because my contacts are too tight" [it took him 45 mins to get me my epidural with Wade and I almost killed the poor man]. Of course this Dr. being SO MUCH BETTER than the other Dr. decided to ignore my advice and to do TWO attempts as well. GEE THANKS. I LOVE THAT SHARP SHOOTING PAIN IN MY BACK. CAN YOU DO IT AGAIN? Anyway, x2 was successful and after that, it was smooth sailing. I seem to recall saying things like, "Am I even HAVING contractions?" I guess the only bad thing would be that my blood pressure bottomed out... and they spent some time working on that. It felt like I was just uber tired and a little loopy. Maybe like a drug induced high? I wouldn't know.
She was delivered at about 5:15 p.m. We pushed a little with my nurse (whom I totally loved, shared a birthday with as well as a complete addiction to chapstick) and then the Dr. came and we finished things up! You might be thinking, "huh, I thought that was almost a 10 lb. baby!" Well, she was, but as my previous OB said, "I think you could give birth to a Mac Truck" (I take it as a compliment) I am not a little person so, getting her out wasn't so hard. As a matter of fact, she had a perfectly round head..... No cones... because, well, I have a gigantic pelvis... so, there you have it. :)
More on the other miracles if I get another good nights sleep.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Hospital day #2
Getting some love from K-lo, one of her namesakes!
Giving the "one eye" to Abby.
The family picture I didn't get at the hospital! I didn't even get a picture of ME holding her at the hospital! (Poor 4th child)
This just happens to be what she is doing RIGHT NOW. :)
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Monday, February 2, 2009
Truthfully, I think Naomi should have gone home tonight. Not that Stephanie was my favorite (her look is a little extreme) but, she was obviously a total sweetheart, caregiver, kind heart... It was amazing to see the girls treat each other so CIVILLY!
It must just be because they are *gasp* normal people??? Awwww, then what fun is THIS going to be??? I can't say that I EVER remember an episode of the Bachelor where I liked more than ONE person. (Maybe TWO at the most) But I can honestly say, although I think Stephanie wasn't right for him... I still liked her ok. No one could find anything bad to say about her!!
Right now, my favorites are Jillian, Molly and Melissa. *SCANDAL* Melissa's home date goes terribly wrong! Next week looks like better blog fodder anyway. (The dead dove burial?? Buh Bye Naomi!)
Wouldn't this make YOU want to come out????
Happy Birthday baby! We hope you decide to come out soon!
Sorry you missed your birthday party!
(Note: Baby's birthday party was followed by 14 hours of contractions at 10 mins apart... then, Nothin')