Saturday, August 1, 2009

Coming to you from 12 feet under. . .

Today, I feel like I am coming to you from 12 feet under.

I read blogs today. . and actually made comments.

It felt good.

I have missed my blogging friends.

I don't have my lap top in operation right now.

It makes for not so much blogg-ing-reading.

I realized that I needed you. .

All of you, this past year.

You were my only friends. . a lot of times.

And it really got me through.

(Now I am crying)

This past year has been hard.

Really hard.

Just when I thought it was going to get better,

it got even harder.

It was horrible.

But today,

I feel blessed.

To have you.

Because you helped me through a really difficult time.

When I didn't feel like I had many people to turn to.

I turned to you.

Thank you.

For reading my blog.

And commenting.

And being there.

Thank you.

Life is GETTING better.

But still pretty (insert your favorite) busy/crazy/hard/stressful/exhausting/box filled.

Had 3 Birthday parties this week.

And actually un-packed boxes.

A LOT of boxes.

And had my own version of decorator prison.

I did it by myself this time.

Without my mom.

And I have to say,

I didn't re-invent the wheel.

But what I love about my stuff,

is that it looks great in ANY house.

I didn't want to unpack.

Because I hate packing.

And I thought that if I just left it packed I wouldn't ever have to pack again! (Great rationale)

But, now that it is unpacked,

I feel more settled.

And the kids are back in school.

And I can see just a LITTLE BIT of light.

And it feels good.

REALLY good.


And I am grateful for my husband.

Who took the kids to the ward swimming party.

And I stayed home.

By myself. (Well, K is in her bed)

And read blogs.

And other things.

And cried a little.

Cuz I'm tired.

And that is it.


Thanks for being there when I needed you.

See you soon with birthday updates.


Leah said...

I like the keeping it all in boxes idea! What you've been through in a year is enough to make every year after this seem like a breeze in comparison. I had a year like that once, now I feel like every year since is a great year no matter what the trials.

Jeanelle said...

Hugging you from here!!!! Can you feel it? Things always get better and I'm glad you're seeing/feeling a little bit more light every day. xoxoxoxoxoox

liz said...

yay for feeling better! And unpacking- visualize that last box one day being unpacked- you're closer to that each day!

The Grant Family said...

(((((hugs))))) Hang in there. You're one tough cookie (or should I say cupcake!) That was a creative idea just leaving things in boxes so you don't have to pack again. I can see how that would work :)

BTW.....she choose ED!!!! Yipee! They looked so good together too. PLEASE let this be couple #2 that finally works. I know the odds are against them, but I have hope. I keep wanting to call him Special ED....anyway....have to get ready for church. See ya!

calibosmom said...

I'm happy that you are feeling a bit more settled. School starting early for you couldn't be better...yehaw!!! Blogging has been good for me too...sometimes my only friends. I wish we lived closer, I'd bring over cupcakes and we could watch trashy tv.

nurse graham said...

I think you are amazing. Taking your kiddos on not one, but two, vacations by yourself; packing and unpacking; getting kids ready and off to school; and many more things. AND you always seem to do it with a smile (at least that is how I picture you). Hang in there.

Melissa-Mc said...

You have had quite the journey this past year. You are amazingly strong and will look back on this someday and think "I did that!" Hang in there, you are doing great.

Natalie said...

BIG. HUGE. HUG. You've been there for me too:). I love you for that. Glad that you are seeing a light. I'm also glad that you got to stay home alone and have yourself a little cry. Sometimes we just need to clean the pump:)! You're great lindsey. thank you for your sweet comment on my blog the other day. it meant a lot:)!!!

jessica said...

YOU have been such a HUGE support to ME Lindsey! You have been an great inspiration to many. I have this thing about keeping things real. Sometimes the "real" isn't pretty and sometimes it's hard to share. Thank you for being real and sharing. I have learned alot from you. The best part is that in the middle of the crap you can still find the humor. I love that about you.


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