Jaxon is a blessing . . . in so many ways. Yes, it is challenging to have a child with Autism, (and overwhelming, frustrating, horrifying, scary, debilitating, enlightening, refreshing, and fun) but my husband and I were out to dinner last night and we realized that Jaxon provides us with something that we probably would have NEVER had if we didn't have him and that is: A simple and pure outlook of success.
Success is measured so differently when you have a child with Autism. With our older daughter, we are frustrated when she doesn't get 100% on a spelling test that she aced at home. . . with Jaxon, we will be THRILLED if we can teach him how to read. With Wade . . . we want him to go to school and have a career! With Jaxon, we will be thrilled if he can get a job at McDonald's.
Now, before you get up in arms about the low-expectations we have for Jaxon. It really isn't that way, it is just that we have been released from ANY expectation. The NATURAL expectation that you have for your kids... it is just not there with Jaxon. I am sure he WILL be able to do the things that I mentioned (read, get a job) but, it is a blessing to just feel grateful for what he DOES accomplish . . instead of having expectations for your children that they may or may not accomplish. You know, we ALL have them. But it is nice to NOT have them for Jaxon.
I would like to think that our Heavenly Father looks at us more the way we look at Jaxon, instead of the way everyone thinks He does...like He is disappointed when we don't 'measure up' to His expectations for us. Maybe He is just thrilled with what we DO learn, and what we DO accomplish. Of course, He always wants more for us, but probably doesn't hang it over our heads.
It is just a different outlook on life, success and expectations. Without him, we wouldn't have that. Thank you Jaxon: we love you.
PS- That big giant chair that you see Jaxon sitting it, yeah, the one that looks like it came from your Grandma's house? Well, it did. And it graces Peter's MAN ROOM.